Today I wrote to a few people and in my letters I said, "How can I tell my brother and my sister, who love me so much, that I am not going to get well? I have to get well!"
When you go to the hospital and see what technology can do today (see through you!) you might think that you are close to God and God's work, and you definitely are. So many things can be done today and there still exist incertitude.